Normal

My man is hanging in there.

It's been a tough week this one.

We are still hanging out on floor 14.

He got his last dose yesterday.

For a total of 12 consecutive doses.

His body is taking its time to bounce back.

Each week had its fair share of issues.

This week had issues that were all over the board.

His body seems to respond differently with each round so it's difficult for his team to know how to approach side effects when something that worked last round isn't working this round.

Liver issues are the major issues preventing him from getting discharged.

His doctors remind me how normal all this is:

Low blood pressure, low creatine levels, high creatine levels, confused state of mind, cappilary leak syndrome, bilirubin levels, high heart rate, high fever, jaundice.....the list goes on.

I wish I could say that makes me feel better.

But it doesn't.

Because there is nothing normal about cancer.

Nothing.

I personally am a bit discouraged.  I'm tired.  I just want this to be done.  I want real normal back.  I'm done with this cancer normal.  Because there is nothing normal about it.